Episodic life photo journal

 hehe i got proposed to yesterday.. Since we are lesbian we get TWO (2) proposals for the price of one. Anyone should have 2 proposals really. I said yes. Took me by surprise and the ring is beautiful but You don't get to see that. The moment i was proposed to, the sum of bad feelings i held before floated away. Like baggage getting dropped. I can’t even remember the trivial things i wrote pages and pages about in my journal. Trivial. Being in a slump and things like that are trivial. I recently learned all is trivial. Life goes on, or whatever. Love is trivial, but beautiful nonetheless. And I value beauty. Anyways. This forced conclusion to a month of unnecessary mourning got me in the spirit of solving coalescing overdue problems. Before the engagement I was so busy being on the road, or in other peoples homes, so i had a decent excuse to be apathetic. Most of these photos are a testament to this apathy because they are shot from in cars or foreign spaces. You might already know...

hey everybody i suppose i am giving myself seven minutes to write this month before i go to work. im obviously super busy this month (not actually that busy just getting emotional and struggling to rip myself out of bed) i am starting to feel the beginning of the end. i swear talking about it helps, because i can actually manage my suffering rather than wishing it wasn't around. i lost my teeth. i have been staying up late playing video games. i have been waking up early to play video games and watch emotionally harmful political content on youtube. i have a lot of responsibilities i am putting off. these are all signs of my fall. it happens every year or so. im trying to be aware of it and accept it, hopefully get it less-impactful because of observer bias. idk. anyways heres some tangible stuff i did: anyways - i had a 3-or-so hour debate about my life with my father (words are sharp) - i went to visit my sister it was super fun i got good new music all in one week - i got a runa...

hi babes. lovely day today. i have decided to not post my face on the internet, although some of my best photos have my/other's faces. so you just get the garbage photos. i mean, im not afraid of random people i don't trust seeing my face, i think posting locations and environments is more dangerous and can cause someone to track me better than my face. believe me, i know. i've been down that rabbit hole before. and there are NOT cure rabbits in that rabbit hole. more like big, scary, SNAKES and SPIDERS. this marker has been on the side of this road since forever, since i was little. they still get flowers and pinwheels often, and it is a source of whimsy each time i see it. i've been working in the library lately and these pages keep coming up on these child computers. i used to love these as a kid too ! so much nostalgia in every nook and cranny of this program. oh, and i am quitting my job soon (picture on right relevant) which is big. it's time i got my stuff to...

 a lot of feelings. strong love, strong frustration, intense joy and intense sadness. i saw with my eyes and really felt it , got my fingers in the feeling and really squeezed. it was soft and spiny.  my great aunt came and left. she is nice, she said to me ‘i really like gaby, she’s a keeper’ and i felt like she was the only person to say that. everyone else likes gaby, but i have been waiting for that phrase. we embroidered together and watched crummy youtube hallmark films. she asked what kind of music i like and i blanked. she is into slow rock. gotta love  my great aunt linda.   i made another playlist cover. im going for childish and frustrated. because that was this whole month. i felt like running away, or causing a scene, or going to bed early, or skipping work. which i did and it was nice because i bought a three gallon tub of ice cream and ate it over a week while watching buffy and sobbing. some days you just need to take of work. im meant to be applying ...